life is an uphill battle of temptation

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Foxy

I love this kid with all my heart. His happiness and innocence is something I hope never goes away. via BeFunky http://www.befunky.com

How did I start being such good friends with you? Couldn’t I tell at the start who you really were? It seemed like you were fun, but you are a trap. Jaws wide open, waiting for someone like me to walk in. You admit you got close to me just to be close to him. You stole him form me, and don’t see anything except him now. You play with so many hearts. Why won’t you play with his so he can see who you really are?  You say you are my friend, then why don’t you know why I’m upset? If I told you it wouldn’t make you change. I need to keep my distance from you

I’m so hurt by everything you do. I’m so upset because of the words you say. I’ve told you it hurts, but do you understand me? I’m only happy when I’m with you. But now I can’t even have that. Why did I let her get in between us? Now she is all you want, all you see. I don’t mean anything to you anymore. I’ve kept perfect distance too long. I’m not even perfect for you. Don’t say I’m your dream, then kiss her on the neck. Don’t tell me you’ll always have feeling s for me, then tell me she;s the one. I know I’m the one, but you never gave me a chance. You act like you don’t know me anymore, but you just know me too well. You feel my pain, you just don’t care. I keep hope that at some point, you’ll go back to where you used to be, and find me there. But I know it’s wrong. I don’t want to laugh, I don’t want to forget. I will try, but I can’t be happy until you are in my life. I don’t care what you say. I’m stuck in the past. I can’t move.

Talking to you makes me turned around. Watching you just gets me down. Seeing you and her walk side-by-side, You’re happy together grinning wide as wide can be, But you’ve forgotten one thing, me.

Teller her things you used to say to me, staying on the phone till nearly three, laying together listening to her breathe. The way you think about her it’s hard to conceive that the one who used to be stuck in your mind was me.

I know how you care and I know how you trust If I miss anything, then I miss us, and being only your best friend just isn’t quite enough why cant you open your eyes and see that you’ll never belong with anyone except me. You’ll tell me I’m your dream and that you’ll always love me, but you cant hurt one and choose between the one that cares and the one that will push you aside, please just believe in me.

And I know how you care and I know how you trust if i miss anything than i miss us, and being only your best friend just isn’t quite enough why cant you open your eyes and see that you’ll never belong with anyone except me.

Peace is hiding in the stars. The silence of the night shouts freedom. Peace is what keeps despair from winning. Peace is holding up the world and keeps it spinning. Just as the sun sets, our hope falls. Caverns conceal our love for each other. That love is hidden in these raging waters.

-Ana Gomulka 4/8/2012

I never even saw you until a week ago today, never even been alone with you, but already I want to say, That I love you, even though I know it’s not true.

I’ll catch your eyes, align with mine, just every now and then. I’ll close my eyes that night and dream of being more than friends. I’ll dream of finally being able to say, I love you.

I’ve never felt your arm around me, or have had you hold my hand. I’ve never had your lips kiss mine, but I have that thought now and again. I have these crazy ideas, that make me come unglued. Ideas of telling you that I love you.

When I talk to you, I forget how to speak and I don’t know what to say. If you ask, I can’t time and I don’t know the day. If you never make move on me, then I’ll forever lose. Because I feel even if it isn’t true, that I love you.

The way you walk, your voice, your smile, are non to be compared. Just watching you from a distance, doesn’t seem quite fair. All I want is to be close, top be allowed to have you in my heart. And if it means I’ll have to give you a clue, then I will, just to at some point say, I love you.

So were we bestfriends to compensate for you pecking and pulling at my heart, then dropping it off a cliff, so you can show up and be my superman, catching it right before it hits the bottom? Are we still even what you would consider close? I can still see through your lies, but you tend to think I don’t know you anymore. So I guess I don’t.

One time wasn’t enough for me to learn to watch my back. Two times was just to fast for me to use the magic word. I never learned from my mistakes soon enough to make something useful of myself. So now I sit at the edge of the world. The trusting walks right next to me; tells me I have a choice to make. “You can jump or fall”. I decide to jump, it will at least be something I chose to do. “And”, he says, “don’t forget-space has no gravity”. I may end up flying after all.

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